Back to hectic hectic office life, as opposed to hectic hectic convention life. Of course, i tend to miss convention life slightly more than i miss office life. By the way, is there some statute of limitations on when i’m allowed to have a crush on someone new? Having never dated before, i’m apparently treading on thin ice right now since i like someone new. Only, she isn’t new. But, let’s ignore the technicalities for now. Anyway, am i supposed to wait for Selina to get over me before i can flirt with other people? It’s been exactly a month since we broke up, and she’s still reading my webpage and holding the contents of it against me as much as she did when we first broke up.
The boy-meets-girl post from yesterday is what seems to be causing most of the trouble. What Selina doesn’t seem to want to believe is that i put “girl” (we’ll think of a psuedonym for her soon, i promise) totally out of mind for the entire time we were dating, because i only knew how to talk to her in terms of flirting. But, that wasn’t really true, that was my excuse to protect Selina from me talking to this girl at all. In reality, she was the last person i talked to before my audition for Good Woman of Setzuan, and the first person i told about getting my part. So… that’s not just flirting, is it? I honestly found her to be the person i wanted to share that with. But, anyway, i stopped talking to her for two whole months and i’m sorry i did because she’s an amazing person and i missed being able to randomly IM about how much we hated school. The fact that she has a boyfriend now is pointless to dwell on – because i was with Selina when they started dating, and i was in love with Selina. But, it’s my own dumb fault for not seeing her over our break. Like i said in that song… there’s no second chance at the first time.