I never used to be able to sleep on my back; it was just too distracting to have my eyes facing anything other than a pillow or a wall. That habit changed after i broke my collarbone, since i couldn’t find a way to get onto my stomache, and sleeping on my side just ground two pieces of freshly broken bone together. As a result, i learned to sleep on my back. I think my learning was enhanced by the fact that i am usually dead tired by the time i get to the bed. In the past i used to be one to stay up for hours, tossing and turning, but these days i seem to have designated the bed as being used just for sleeping and my sleep process goes much more smoothly that way.
My next demo CD seems far off in the future, but i was all but two songs away from completing my last demo (art and all) by this time last year. Of course, that demo was drawn from about two years of songwriting. However, this one might be too; i am not totally opposed to redoing songs that i still feel a connection to (look for “Bridge” to make another appearance). Assuming that this demo is at least 80% already-written (and it might not be), the material it would feature is interesting. It would have a significant overlap with my last demo, and contain only a few new “breakout” songs such as “Never Say Goodbye.” Gina would definitely appear on it, both playing and singing, as would a host of other people. And so on and so on. However, in reality it will be over six months before the demo is recorded and so it is a very maleable thing. As such, i invite you to register your opinion on what it should contain as compared to the last one. You can vote even if you don’t have a copy; in general, any song that appears on both my audio library and my demo is the same version on each.
a new song i found myself working on tonite. very influenced by the new elastica album
make it last Fri, 25 Aug 2000 14:33:01 -0400 beneath my breath i speak these words to you and i feel like death but i haven't got a clue what to do and i feel like i never was born are you for real or do i even care that much any more i'll open my eyes if you take my picture i'll open my arms to the next disaster i'll open my mouth if you kiss me harder i'll open my heart if you make it last pin me down or tack me to your wall i'll be your butterfly dry me out and make me crawl i'd be your ignorance if you we're already in bliss i'd be your second chance if you hadn't already used it i'll open my... am i your injury do i burn you deep inside take away my decency and you leave me just with pride and i wish i had never met you am i an optimist to think i wouldn't be fucked up then i'll open my...
While walking down the hallway to the bathroom, i was contemplating whether the layout of this page is at all inviting to the casually drawn in observer. I don’t particularly think it is, given my zeal for dark layouts; white is much more eye catching. For a split second i considered inverting the page’s colours and switching the background to the ubiquitous clouds. Than i remembered what the psychics over at torrez.org said about that. Apparently, if i want any kind of shelf-life, i need to lay off those fluffy white thought-mobiles. Oh well, i like darkness anyhow…
As previously aspired to, i easily made it onto the irrelevant Power Bloggers tonight during my first eligible day. I am impressed, of course, since i love gaining attention for things that require no work on my part. Well… i just made sure not to post twice in the same 15 minutes, but that’s more a personal rule than it is a cut-throat tactic to get onto the list. Or, at least you can think that.
i just took TheSpark.com’s Famous Personality Test, and was linked by 100% to the exact person i predicted i would be. Not that i am attracted to them madly or anything, i just knew i would be totally compatible with them. Meanwhile, i got high 90% rankings with several other friends (and only one of them was male :), so now i know who to hit on at parties :) If you would like to check your compatibility with me, enter my email address at the end of the test.
I was chatting with a few female friends who are slightly older than me a few hours ago, and they were talking about ex-boyfriends who have since been co-habitating with other (fatter) girls. While their musings were amusing, they got me to thinking. I don’t date. I haven’t ever, really. Heck, i don’t really flirt, as such, i’m just overly friendly. All this added to the fact that most casual acquaintances think i’m gay doesn’t bode well for me in the girlfriend department. My point being, that i don’t know whem i’ll ever be up to cohabitation. Sure, i might meet a girl tomorrow that i want to spend a year of my life with, but i’d have to ask her out first, and she’d have to say yes. Imagining myself living in sin at the tender age of 21 or 22 is about as believeable as me being on a national tour behind my fourth album by then. Of course, if i were to work on the latter more than the former i might achieve the former anyhow. But, those famous people relationships never last. Anyhow, if i had to choose a cohabitation partner right this instant, she wouldn’t be famous. Who needs famous people with stars like mine in your life?
Having friends is nice. I take people for granted a bit too often, being quite the introvert despite appearances otherwise. I value friends who always smile when they see me more than anything else in the world. I wish they all realized that.