Personal

I never used to like Ezis, and i’ll be the first to admit it. While he was the darling linkee (and at a point, hostee) of shazbot (a former incarnation of my beloved shafted), his mix of occasional logging and rampant abuse of aolIM to suss out the biggest idiots in the universe simply didn’t entertain me. However, he paid me the ultimate compliment of liking my site even after i dissed his at length. Since then i’ve gotten to like him a bit better, and i even pay tribute to him by posting my more amusing chats here. Today is Ezis‘s site’s 1yr anniversary (counting all incarnations). Give him the gift of hits.

Every so often i remember some obscure moment from my childhood, much like the story from 1st grade posted below. Often i am struck by the desire to record each one as i recall it, in case it should be irretrievably lost soon thereafter. Those quirky little moments are what makes me who i am, i suppose. And i’m sure that i lose one every day.

I’ve noticed that a lot of the e/n community has gone through growing pains this summer. Whole domains have gone down, madly respected sites have fallen in shambles, and crowd favourites have began to question their reason’s for existence. Having been caught up in one such debacle already, i can safely say that contemplating everything from your raison d’etre to your belly button lint doesn’t help the situation any. That was exactly the place where i tried to impose my personal perception of a whole genre of sites onto one site, and it backfired. For me at least. I found that i became totally irrelevant to shafted, no matter how amusing my posts were. I’m trying to get back to being a useful part of the posting community now, but the damage i contributed by my lengthy diatribes might be irreparable. I hope not. Anyhow, now another one of my perennial favourites, Illegal Op, seems to be having a few growing pains of its own. I think that’s inevitable for any site that boasts over a dozen people each posting about their lives on a daily basis. In the case of e/n change is good. The sites that aren’t soley composed of juvenile penis humour and porn are few and far between, and it hurts to see them start to crumble under their own reflective weight. It’s only when you stop to question your evolution that you become extinct.

random cd adventure 6-10:

Various – y100 Sonic Session vol.3

reason: tori

1st listen – 6.5/10 || then: 7/10 || now: 7/10

best songs: hole’s “malibu,” tori’s “concertina,” live’s “i alone”

qu: “You have a tattoo of our band? You fool! Oh my god… you know when you get the lord you
can just change the ‘e’ to a ‘y’ … it could just say ‘holy’ – Courtney

Offspring – Smash

reason: modern rock radio

1st listen – 5.5/10 || then: 6.5/10 || now: 5/10

best songs: “self esteem,” “come out and play,” “gotta get away”

qu: “that’s ok ’cause i’ve got no self esteem”

Tori Amos – Cruel / Raspberry Swirl

reason: obsessiveness

1st listen – 6/10 || then: 7/10 || now: 6/10

best songs: “raspberry swirl” – lip gloss version

qu: “i can be cruel and i don’t know why”

hair

reason: doing props for the show

1st listen – 7.5/10 || then: 9/10 || live: 9.5/10 || now: 7/10

best songs: “hair,” “easy to be hard,” “flesh failures (let the sunshine in)”

qu: “the beauty of life, you can no longer hide. our eyes are open, our eyes are open, wide”

dave matthews and tim reynolds – live at luther college

reason: hearing it at the players’ house / spectacular guitar

1st listen – 9/10 || then: 7/10 || now: 8/10

best songs: “one sweet world,” “typical situation,” “seek up”

qu: “she thinks, we look at each other wondering what the other is thinking but we never say a thing; these crimes between us grow deeper”

random cd adventure 1-5:

Meredith Brooks – Blurring the Edges

reason: “bitch”

1st listen – 6/10 || then: 7.5/10 || live: 6.5/10 || now: 5/10

best songs: “birthday,” “wash my hands,” “stop”

worst song: “my little town”

qu: “I stumble hard but i’m not sleeping in your bed”

Joni Mitchell – Blue

reason: classic album, “case of you”

1st listen – 5/10 || then: 7.5/10 || now: 6.5/10

best songs: “a case of you,” “this flight tonight”

qu: “songs are like tattoos”

Joan Osborne – Relish

reason: “One of Us”

1st listen – 7/10 || then: 9/10 || now: 8/10

best songs: “lumina,” “crazy baby,” “let’s just get naked”

qu: “babies will put things in their mouths – never heard of sin”

“here is the place, now is the time, let’s invent the kiss”

No Doubt – Tragic Kingdom

reason: popular

1st listen – 8/10 || then: 9.5/10 || now: 8/10

best songs: “sunday morning,” “spiderwebs,” “happy now”

qu: “you’re just like my ken and barbie doll, your name will never change”

Sarah McLachlan – Launch #4

reason: random

1st listen – 10/10 || then: 9.5/10 || now: 9/10

song: “building a mystery” (solo and acoustic)

qu: “you’re so beautiful with an edge and a charm, but so careful when i’m in your arms”