Of all the search strings to ever have this page at the top of their results, this one is definitely my new favourite.
by krisis
thoughts
lazy summer heat is slowly seeping into my pores because it always distributes evenly to where things are cool because that’s how science works. i am listless with heat, waking up abruptly from crucial points in my technicolor-bright dreams to glittering sun bathing my entire bed in gilded rays. last night there were three story double homes with bay windows in the third floor bedroom and i remember hugging someone very tightly to me and something strange lurking in the basement that i knew all about as a narrator but nothing about as a character. and then i was flying, weaving inbetween buildings and up and over and out into sky and that’s about as much as i recall about that.
today i really do have work to do, but the page was looking sort of lonely. read that last post, if you haven’t already. but, anyway i just realized today that i haven’t played “under my skin” since i played it for rabi or at the bar and i think i somehow got past it or something and that scares me, because that song was all about everything. have you been paying much attention to the new songs? they’re conspiring against me and my album and i think they might have kidnapped “relief” because i haven’t heard anything from it for a while. i think “splinter” is in charge of the whole conspiracy even though it doesn’t show up too much, because it’s very jealous about not getting on the album and it knows that gina really likes it and oh god now i’m talking about my songs like they’re people just like tori amos does but i always just explain that away with the fact that she did too many low-quality l.a. drugs in the 80’s but i’ve never even been to nebraska so i’m obviously just crazy to begin with.
the songs are sortof like people though. after you play something enough you begin to develop a relationship with it; some days you dress it up special and some days it barely rolls out of bed and some days it just doesn’t want to have it’s picture taken and it’s holding its hands up in front of its face and complaining. the scary thing is that the new songs are doing this now, as they’re written. that last one flaunted its independence right at me saying “you can’t end me unless i want to be ended, so keep on writing” and i did and it takes up way more pages in my little grey book than any of the other songs do but now that it made me write it all down it doesn’t really seem to want to be played, which confuses me to no end. i don’t think i really realized that all of my songs are relationship songs until gina pointed it, and now i seem to be able to write everything else but it’s like hitting a new note for the first time because i can’t tell if they’re strong or if they just seem very nice because i’ve never heard them before.
if you were wondering, this is just how my head is working lately. i wrote a 2300 word email last night without even really intending to. it’s like when i open up my head things just come pouring out until it’s empty again. but, anyway, this post is just a post for the sake of being here in this little box, so i again defer to the intelligence of the last post and wish you all have a nice day.
Off to cook italian food and feel like a real person! Cooking is a vivid life experience if you do it with passion. And, definitely a turn-on. Okay, that’s enough sharing for now, i’ll have nine truths and a lie for you later in the evening. Are you scared yet?
Things i learned while shopping: Whatever is on the end of the aisle is a impulse buy, even if it’s 2for1 Captain Crunch and you’re convinced that it’s exactly what you meant to eat for breakfast today // Unless you own a lemon farm, buying lemonade in bulk is the same price and the same ingredients [as making your own] // The people who bag groceries really enjoy it if you make light of your stupidity instead of just complaining // Quarts of milk are going out of style // I should buy Quaker granola bars by the gross rather than spending $20 on them at a time // However, if you find something you really like to eat on sale and it doesn’t spoil, there is no reason not to buy as many of them as you can afford // Yet, nonspoilable food tends to just sit in my cabinet while i order takeout, so i have to find a happy medium. // Knives are cheaper at kitchen stores, but they look sharper when sitting next to a lone spatula in the cook-wares aisle // I shouldn’t have to spend money on food for two weeks unless i have a growth spurt. // If you buy a quart of yogurt, you are not expected to eat it all on one serving. Really. // Cream cheese expires too fast to be appreciated. // You cannot free all of the lobsters, and even if you could you’d eventually get hungry and eat your roommate’s favourite one.
Webrings are definitely a funny thing in the world of blog because i’m almost positive that they’re redundant. Way back in the day when i was running my fanfic site (which will be five years soon, and yes that makes me very scared) i joined a slew of webrings to drum up more traffic. Back then it was a great idea; sites with such specialized content were few and far between and even the very huge ones were relatively obscure because not everyone had such easily centralized domain names. A webring allowed you to join forces with a gaggle of like-minded people and to share the modest flow of traffic each one of you brought to the table. I honestly can’t tell you why i ever joined any webrings for this site; i honestly don’t even remember doing it; i suspect that i chose the three that looked the most familiar to me from my various misadventures in logging because i figured if the name was that familiar i must read plenty of sites in the ring. However, the nature of blogging is partially a matter of linking, whether it be to more of your own content or to news or to other blogs, so that any given view of my index page probably yeilds at least an hour of reading material (and a view of an archive page probably exponentially more). With plenty of relevant content plus my own collection of highly endorsed links (not to mention my own musical meanderings) available via the same sidebar as that lonely little webring link, i can’t image why anyone would click it. I certainly wouldn’t.
In short, if a reader is looking for like-minded loggers they would probably just read all of the sites i link – all of which have their own (larger) lists of linked sites. So, why take a chance on a random ring site? It seems to me rings would be more effective as enforced cliques of loggers, because that way the coherency is assured. Of course, i don’t really belong to any cliques at this point, so i’d be linkless. But, could it hurt? At least they’d serve a purpose then.
Oh well. So much for idle thought.