Crushing Krisis

Comic Books, Drag Race, & Life in New Zealand

Archives for 2000

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I hate writing a bad song. Not only do i potentially waste some good lines or riffs which i am then reluctant to recycle, but i more importantly loose a chance to voice an emotion. Sure, a lot of my songs cover roughly the same emotional territory, but not many of them come from the exact same inspiration. This summer i very badly wanted to write a song about my first kiss that would say exactly what i felt about it, but in reality it just came off as a too-shimmery Britney Spears b-side. I keep trying to reform it, and it is getting better, but i’m not sure that i’ll ever want to play it in the company of other songs like “relief” and “under my skin.” But, my inability to say or write what i feel, tomorrow’s trio is going to be chock full of good songs i haven’t played yet to make up for missing last week (which was totally unintentional). Ok… that’s all.

https://crushingkrisis.com/2000/11/1463493/

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If you were interested, the cast page just got slightly updated. Not that anyone actually refers to it … which of course leads to the impulse to include intensely personal details about the people that are featured on it. Amy especially got a revamped entry, at her own request.

https://crushingkrisis.com/2000/11/1463232/

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Elliott Smith is one of those people that craft songs that sound immediately familiar. Of course, i’m not just realizing that now, since i’m already achingly familiar with his last disc, XO. I first came across it while in Anastasia’s bedroom. We’d just sit on her floor every sunday for hours, talking and watching movies and listening to tori and other music. Our big difference in taste was that i liked women, and she liked men. … Musically, that is. But, slowly we infringed upon each other’s taste. Suddenly Anastasia was listening to Dilate, and i was borrowing her copy of XO and listening to it in a stunned silence as i wondered how Elliott found noises for those empty places inside my own heart. Two years later i just bought two of her favourite discs from my senior year, and she’s in college somewhere in New York. And Elliott still invokes those familiar aches.

https://crushingkrisis.com/2000/11/1462941/

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Or maybe i’m wrong. I’ve spent years now learning and teaching my peers about HIV / AIDS, and really this is the first season in half a decade i’ve spent totally removed from such a community. Is it any less in my thoughts? No, not at all. I’ve known people who have died from aids, and met some of the bravest people in the world who live with the disease. In fact, if statistics are to be believed, i have at least three or four friends who suffer from HIV or will in the near future. Of course, i pray to myself that the statistics are as wrong as statistics tend to be, but i suppose i’ll hardly ever know until it’s much too late. Maybe silence is a way to show how AIDS effects your world, but it isn’t the way to show how it has effected mine. But, no matter how it’s changed you, i encourage you to support World AIDS day as well, even if it’s just by wearing a tiny red ribbon. They aren’t as fashionable as they used to be, but red will be in season until HIV is not.

https://crushingkrisis.com/2000/11/1462896/