Having Selina on Bertie’s webcam makes it incredibly easy to know when to ignore Bertie’s IM name, seeing as it’s Selina at the helm.
You know, it feels a little childish not to talk to someone at all, but it sorta has to be done. Don’t we all know that couple that keeps getting back together even though it’s not a good idea, or the ex’s that just never quit going after each other’s sore spots? Well, it seems like those two things are dumb reflex on my part unless i ignore her to some degree. And, honestly, i’ve got my own mental health in mind here, so if it seems childlike just know that my head feels a bit less aged for my trouble.
btw, to those who caught the two-minute entry i deleted on Wednesday night: there is no hole in my wall. I lie compulsively the first time ’round, but i tend to tell the truth if it’s in a printed retraction. yeah. xoxox
Um, not to retread a bridge i burnt down earlier this week or anything, but Selina will be appearing on and off on the HyperCam all weekend. I’ll never link to her diary for you to pry into, but at least you can see her now.
Is this a bit too boring to look at? I was getting a bit sick of that background… it was blending into everything else on my desk so that i couldn’t even focus on the page. But, i probably read it a lot more than you do :p
I was just a real person with a real life for a whole week. I work for a living, i go out to eat, i pay bills, i write songs, i have friends, i have romantic interests. I don’t think i’ve ever spent another week as vivid and adult before in my entire life. And i don’t think i’ve ever felt so randomly tossed around by everything that’s been happening to me – maybe control is for the uninteresting.
And now it is the weekend again, and this week feels as though it floated away out from under me without my having taken the slightest notice. I played my guitar once, i watched teevee once, and i ate out every night, and here i am easily $60 in the hole and otherwise absolutely the same. Hopefully the weekend will make up for it…