My connection has a knack for dying just as i hit the post button, and i have a knack for posting things i can’t ever really reconstruct. Isn’t life funny that way?
by krisis
(and now, for the requisite pining romantic post of the AM). And, of course, now that i’m worth responding to and all that, when i theoretically should be interested in getting other people interested in me, i miss Selina. Of course, my friends mostly seem to think i shouldn’t ever get back together with her, and most of her friends tell her she can find someone better for her than me, but that’s what friends are for: saying things. Of course, if enough of them say the same thing you start believing them, which is why they say all of those things to begin with. In a way i just miss her, because i’ve never gone this long without seeing her or hearing her voice, but of course there’re other perspectives too. The more and more i tell people i don’t want to be dating my first girlfriend one or two years from now the less and less i believe it.
Gina told me today that her and Joey didn’t have an especially easy first few months, and that she endlessly pestered him while he was entirely laid back. They just had their three year anniversary. She said “look, i’m not going to tell you that if you wait through stuff now everything will be perfect for you in three years, but if you find someone you’d still like to be with in three years you need to sit it out.”
That’s why they call them Best Friends: they give the best advice. I knew there was a reason i always mean to talk to Gina more often…
I’m starting to feel like a real person. I have friends, i go places, i spend money … all things real people do. I had this spectacular conviction a few months ago that i was completely two-dimensional, and no one could convince me otherwise until Selina. Selina turned me into a real person who honestly believes in their life, and now everything i do has an extra dimension where before it was just flat. And, people are actually responding to me – because i believe i’m worth responding to now.
So, first you take a bunch of high school friends and put them in an apartment four three hours with 7 electrical musical instruments, and then you take most of those same high school friends and give them a largish bottle of vodka, several gallons of orange juice, and their favourite Simpsons episode of this season (around which they construct a drinking game). Then, take the only two that are vaguely drunk, put them in a car with the totally sober one, and send them deep deep into the suburbs to go bowling. Yes, bowling. And, that, my dear reader, is how to have a fun Sunday during spring break..
AMkitchen is getting a months overdue update, but if you’re a regular reader here i don’t think any of it will be new to you. AMkitchen used to be the main component of my website, and now this has taken over and left the kitchen as a neatly designed archive for all the witty new songs that pop up over here. I suspect after i begin work in earnest on my new demo (in less than 12 hours, honestly!), things will perk up over there. We shall see…