Home again!
by krisis
Personal
For now on i think i’m going to conduct all flirting via this page. I mean, between the passive aggressiveness and the lack of self-confidence i’m not gonna get anywhere any other way, right? So… um… if you’re someone i’m currently supposed to be flirting with, what’s your sign?
Being stuck at home now isn’t really as bad as it was at any point last year, because now i have my apartment to retreat to. I mean… if i truly had some huge panic attack and needed to get out of the house, i could just catch a cab to my apartment. That’s my safe thought… knowing that i have the keys and that i can run away at any time.
I shouldn’t blog from this evil house. All of it comes out all wrong.
Everyone in my entire family commented on all of the weight i’ve gained and how good i look now. In a way it’s nice, because none of them ever compliment me on anything so i know i must look healthier, but since i’m not entirely comfortable with my new 20 pounds i’m not exactly thrilled that it was a big subject over Christmas Eve dinner. I think my issue is that i’m filling out well enough, but i’m not really shaping any of the weight, so if i gain any more i might look a little pudgy, which of course would make me very upset. My whole body-image is a very fragile thing, and i know i sound like a teenaged girl, but i’ve always been very thin and this is taking some getting used to. Not to mention that i definitely have a big wheezy fat gene on my father’s side of the family. I should obviously give up meat again… and god help me if i ever start drinking beer… (well, god help us all…)