Comic Books, Drag Race, & Life in New Zealand
by krisis
The morning is lovely. Maybe it’s not, but i have all of my windows closed and am swaddled in comfy pajamas, so all i really need to see is sunlight streaming through my window to be convinced. I don’t think i’m going outside today; i spent enough money this weekend to carry me through two or three lonely days in the apartment. Instead, i’ll just sit here and stare at that endless perfect blue that frames all the beaten old buildings across the street from me. Contrast.
by krisis
Well, this one’s off to dreamland, and I don’t think i have a damn thing to do tomorrow, because i was expecting to be hung over or something. If anyone has any suggestions, feel free to suggest. Otherwise, i think i’m headed into the studio to record. Of course, that might have been your suggestion, but in the absence of class and work, music is my #1 priority so i tend to shy away from it. We’ll see…
by krisis
Everything here is in it’s right place; it’s as though my apartment has resolved back to where it began, only with the memory of all its accumulated along the way. I’m not a sucker for completeness, but i like when things come together, and i like feeling okay. And right now i can see more hardwood floor than i’ve been able to see in months, and i feel okay. This past week i’ve felt like life has started to come together, and spending today with the people i came here with just added to the good cheer. Maybe once i really find a life of my own, i’d be ready to let someone else into it. I hope so…
by krisis
My connection has a knack for dying just as i hit the post button, and i have a knack for posting things i can’t ever really reconstruct. Isn’t life funny that way?
by krisis
(and now, for the requisite pining romantic post of the AM). And, of course, now that i’m worth responding to and all that, when i theoretically should be interested in getting other people interested in me, i miss Selina. Of course, my friends mostly seem to think i shouldn’t ever get back together with her, and most of her friends tell her she can find someone better for her than me, but that’s what friends are for: saying things. Of course, if enough of them say the same thing you start believing them, which is why they say all of those things to begin with. In a way i just miss her, because i’ve never gone this long without seeing her or hearing her voice, but of course there’re other perspectives too. The more and more i tell people i don’t want to be dating my first girlfriend one or two years from now the less and less i believe it.
Gina told me today that her and Joey didn’t have an especially easy first few months, and that she endlessly pestered him while he was entirely laid back. They just had their three year anniversary. She said “look, i’m not going to tell you that if you wait through stuff now everything will be perfect for you in three years, but if you find someone you’d still like to be with in three years you need to sit it out.”
That’s why they call them Best Friends: they give the best advice. I knew there was a reason i always mean to talk to Gina more often…