krisis

I’m finding that i don’t like my 2nd demo very much anymore. Many of the songs are ones that i no longer play, and the production of them is weak at best. A few tracks like “crashing” and “a long time since” still put a smile on my face, but otherwise i am left longing for my chance to get into the Drexel studio to work on my next cd. All i’ve got to do is pass two semesters of Recording Techniques, Music Theory, and Aural Skills. I’m sure i can do it…

Jon Bence, who is usually quite irreverantly stupid and unexplicably well respected in the e/n and blog communities, has currently proven himself to be a bigoted idiot. And yes, i realize this makes me just as bad as those he was “criticizing” in a post made earlier today. Essentially, Bence said: “It’s HARD to be tolerant of gay people. The ok gay people (the ones who act NORMAL) are the minority cause of all the wackos. Ugh. If I was gay I’d kill myself, too bad those fucking gay rights wackos won’t do the same. I’m so fucking pissed. ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!”

While i agree that the in-your-face tactics of some Gay Rights groups can be a bit disconcerting to people who aren’t okay with those who are “out,” i don’t think their actions are a reason to turn against an entire community. Furthermore, “gay people” shouldn’t have to act “NORMAL.” “NORMAL” is a nonexistant concept. I don’t find slimy assholes who try to hook up with drunk girls at parties to be “NORMAL” by my definition, so i must be allowed to hate them as well. As it is, i find them rather borish and i try not to associate with them. If only everyone could be so tolerant in their dislikes we’d probably be a bit healthier.

I don’t particularly care if Bence’s post was a snap decision, but you can go and decide for yourself. The point for me is that he is intolerant of those different from the norms he expects, and i choose not to promote or respect that. As a result, from here on i am making a conscious choice not to read Bence or or other sites with Bence-content, and i ask you to consider doing to same after you read his post if you share my opinion. While Bench is entitled to say whatever he feels, i find the allure of his commentary being absolutely zero now that i know more about its writier. I realize boycotts are always rather silly, but they’re a good way to prove a personal point. If you should find youself agreeing with Bence, i kindly ask you to refrain from reading my posts from here on out, as i’m not interested in sharing my life with you.

lukelog has a link to a wonderful article on the history of blogging. It’s rather interesting, and actually informative to boot.

hilary: there was a time, long ago, when i was good at research

krisis: there was a time long ago when i was intelligent. now i’m mostly just smart

hilary: i never really feel intimidated at DU…as long as i chill with humanities majors

krisis: yeah, same here. The thing is, i should be able to wrassle with Science majors, but i voluntarily dumbed down in that aspect in high school. I’m starting to thing that school did me more harm than good

hilary: mmm, wrassling with science majors, what a good idea

krisis: Only with some of them…

hilary: lol, oopse, been home too long

krisis: hehehe

krisis: I’ve resolved to date this year. Somehow. I am living the romantic life of a 12-year-old.

hilary: i believe you could do that

krisis: Live the life of a 12 year old, or date?

hilary: either, both

hilary: depends, are you going to see urban legend 2?

hilary: i think seeing the film sticks you in the 12yr old category. But then again, you could bring a date to it…. what am i saying…i can admit it, i watched the video music awards last night

krisis: Ha! I slept right through it! And damn proud. Not a single album i own got nominated, that i’m aware of. I see it as a great victory

hilary: see, you are not 12

krisis: Yes. More like 15. Relief.

hilary: see, 15 is good cause 19 yr olds can date you without trouble from the law

krisis: It’s like… half of me says “dude, if you wanted to date you would date, and since you aren’t you’re just biding your time” and the other half says “you’re so god damned pathetic, just get back in the basement where you’ve been hiding”

krisis: And while i’m hiding in the basement, i’m thinking “if i don’t start my emotional development now, when will i”

hilary: if you’re tourtured…its a sign you’re growing

So, my end of summer resolution is that i have to date this year. Yes, date. That doesn’t include randomly flirting with slightly inebriated people at parties, either. I’ve been on two (2) dates in my lifetime, and neither of them really turned out as a date. Blah. So, in accordance with yesterday’s revelation that i won’t ever get anywhere if i never try, i’m going to have to ask some people to go out with me this year. I’m trembling in fear, by the way. It’s a wonder that i can type.