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After taking a few months of enforced downtime from appearing on camera, it was wild to launch the Tigereyes poll on Near Mint Condition and hear that people missed me.

Missed. Me. My face as expertly framed and curated by the hair & makeup team who wake up at 5:45am New Zealand time to get me ready for these streams.

Even in the world of just comic book influencers I am a micro, micro, micro influencer with a tiny amount of name and face recognition. But, it’s still recognition. Perception. Being seen.

And, I have to tell you, that is deeply, deeply strange in ways you don’t think about when you are praying for it as a teenager.

In the first year after I launched CK I was still a teenager and I used money from my first full-time job to buy my own webcam. You have to consider, this was in the beforetimes, when cell phones didn’t even have cameras. The ability to broadcast the inside of my apartment to the internet in real time was groundbreaking technology.

There was no hair and makeup team. At points there was no wardrobe… I made many unplanned appearances in the nude on the internet. And some planned ones. I was totally unfiltered.

Alas, there was no OnlyFans at the time to monetize my hot twink bod. But I digress.

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