Wow, i’m a broken fucking record, eh? “And the emotions spun out of control and the bodies fit like a needle in the groove and after it was all over we couldn’t even muster up the strength to move.”
by krisis
thoughts
What’s funny is that my girlfriend didn’t like me drinking without her around, and i was going to be drinking tonight at the party. It’s funny, because the only time i drank this whole term was with her, but stories of my various semi-nude escapades and strip-tease lap-dancing get around, and make a girl jealous. But, what’s funny is that there’s nothing to be jealous of, because she’s the only girl i ever drank with and wound up dating. And the drunk part was inconsequential. And, yet, she was jealous. She couldn’t see that she was the only thing i liked, and then i went and broke up with her. To prove it, i guess.
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Isn’t it funny how i’m going to a farewell party for Laurel tonight, because she’s leaving the country in a week or two, and so i broke up with my girlfriend. Did i just want to make sure that i really did like her more then i ever liked Laurel, just to prove that i really did like her and wasn’t just settling for her. Because… Laurel never liked me back. You can only like someone so much when they never return it..
shit… i think i’ve cried more this term than i have in any other year of my life since i was a little kid.
What’s funny is that i really don’t have anything mean to say. Even though i’m the one that broke up with her, i think she was the most perfect first girlfriend in the universe and i’d never trade my time with her for anything else. It was just… it just felt like we reached an end. Maybe we had just reached a fork in the road and i’m a blind man so i walked right off the side of the path. Who knows? In six months i’ll make sure to remind you all whether this was a really bad idea or not.