Crushing Krisis

Comic Books, Drag Race, & Life in New Zealand

Archives for February 2001

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Eek…. i’m so used to hating Valentine’s Day and not buying anything for anyone that i sorta forget that i can actually take part in the greeting card industry’s favourite holiday after Christmas. I mean… i recognize its pointlessness in the same way i blow off Mother’s Day every year; either i’m appreciating my mother year ’round or the one day isn’t going to make much of a difference. However, i’ve always had a mother, but having a Valentine is an entirely new phenomenon. I’ll have to hit a Hallmark today when i go shopping…

https://crushingkrisis.com/2001/02/2281300/

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You know, i sometimes get the idea that certain logs are illustrious and powerful just because i know their names. I mean… i don’t really actively seek out new blogs to read; i just happen upon the ones i happen upon. However, in my half a year of happenings i’ve seen a few names pop up more than i’ve seen others. Whether it be on PowerBlogger, or on the sidebar at blogger.com, or on other people’s lists of links, some names are just more visible than others. I think what eternally surprises me is what i find when i visit these sites; i expect them to be masterful works with strong narrative voice and a sense of direction, but most of the time the writers have a lot more in common with me than with my preconceived notion of them.


What’s funny is that i exist on the other side of that notion sometimes too. I mean, this log has been around long enough to give people the chance to see it linked from various placed without actually reading it, and the fact that some of them might come here with the sense that i’m in some way important is pretty boggling. Of course, maybe no one does that sort of thing but me; it wouldn’t be the first time.

Last night one of my best friends turned to me and said “I was sorta afraid to talk to you, because i figured you wouldn’t really be interested in someone like me.” It wasn’t that she thought i was too cool, or anything like that, she just made the assumption that i had enough friends as it was and to try to be befriend me was not worth the effort.


I couldn’t even believe my ears as i had this explained to me, because when i comes down to it i’m a very isolated person with very few friends who i actually talk to daily, and she just assumed that i didn’t need anyone else like that in my life. Well, i did, and thank god we actually wound up talking eventually, because i don’t know what i’d be doing without her at this point.

Moral? I don’t know. How about we try this: today go to your favourite log that always struck you as being famous and popular and groovy, and send the author an email telling them how much you appreciate their writing. You’d be amazed at the response you get, whether you get to see it or not. I’m on my way to my favourite famous-log now; you better be doing to same!

https://crushingkrisis.com/2001/02/2280880/

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I really think i might be trying to fail out of school this semester. Of course, by this point i think we’ve established that failing out for me would be equivalent to getting a C in any one subject.

I’m not in class right now. I’m in the building where class is held, i have no physical restraints to attending class, but i’m not there. None of my classes are holding my attention, it’s as simple as that. I’ve managed to pull straight A’s in Literature attending half the lectures and reading a third of the books, my public speaking class is so useless that i honestly think i’m getting worse at speaking publicly, i haven’t learned anything in recording for two weeks (although that’s entirely my own dumb fault for being so tired in class all the time), and i couldn’t even go to Aural Skills last week because i couldn’t hear or sing through my headcold.

Am i trying to fail? Is it just that i already got my role in the play and my co-op position and just don’t want to fight for anything else? Are my classes all so easy that i think the only way i could possibly have to work for them is if i only attend once or twice a week? I’m really not sure, but something’s gonna change – and it’s either going to be my behaviour or my grade point average.

https://crushingkrisis.com/2001/02/2280491/

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I am nothing if not a whore for links, so here’s a little something to catch y’all up on who else has been wasting time on my page. Firstly, longtime favourite Matt Pollard sent me some lovely linky love out of nowhere last week, and i never let Matt’s love go unreturned. Also, continuing link-love exists from Matt, DayZero, ClosetBoy, SavvyMel, & the darling May. Oh, plus Rabi still knows i exist, and she covered yesterday’s inclement weather much better than i did (which was not at all).

Next, i was randomly totally flattered by this site, which lists me as one of the writer’s top10 favourite blogs. Isn’t that sweet? I honestly thought all my visitors were my friends snooping around trying to pick up tidbits about my girlfriend that i won’t tell them in real life…

In the realm of SurvivorBlog2, we just got linked from my all-time favourite omni-present homosexual british net-guru Tom@PlasticBag. So, maybe that somehow sorta-kinda means he might know who i am in an obscure and indifferent way. And, that makes me all tingly inside. Fellow sBlogger Ryan actually has my link featured prominently on his splash page, which rocks! Ditto for Alayna (who i’m madly in love with) & Erik (who even used my link button!), Finally, KevRock from Fury.com (also from the Sblog2 Peanut Gallery) linked a whole bunch of my content without actually leaving any love for my own site, but i’ll take any mention i can get in the midst of his sexy mix of technology and, um, sexiness.

Finally, i’d like to just wish Re from Beautiful Freak the best as she takes a little break from logging. We’ll still love you when you come back, babe.

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Trio: Season 1, #14

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Been waiting for a Trio, have you? Well, get prepared for a monster-sized new-guitar special: 8 songs & 30 minutes long! Witness me tear through “Bridge,” “A Long Time Since,” “Inadequacy Song,” “Punk,” “Almost,” “World In My Hand,” “Relief,” and the always sparkling “Under My Skin.” I make no promises as to the quality of this recording: i’ve been playing this guitar for under 24 hours, i’m sick and i can’t hear the sound of my own voice, i’m dealing with wacky amplifier distortion, i haven’t done a Trio in a month, and i’m sure i clipped the microphone at least three times in every song. But, anyway, if you’re the sort of person that cares about this sorta thing, it’ll be up for your listening pleasure come midnite. Enjoy.


While you’re waiting for me to upload the new Trio (almost 5megs, and still as low quality as ever), feel free to check out some other new audio: namely, the three ad-libbed love songs i wrote for the folks over at the SurvivorBlog2 PeanutGallery in a blatant attempt to win their affections earlier this week. “ErnDawg,”(Tony,) I Want More,” and “Revirginized Honey.” The first is on a bass played an octave high to simulate a guitar, the second is on an electric guitar missing a significant amount of strings, and the third is played just as bass-melody. Funky. Which is your favourite?