Perhaps this won’t seem especially ironic to you since my politics generally remain unremarked upon (though easily extrapolated from other details), but recently i’ve been getting a steady trickle of hits from this conservative political blog and i couldn’t figure out why. Occasionally sitemeter attributes referrals to sites that have no linkage to mine whatsoever, but every few hours i would see a hit from this self proclaimed “Big & Loud” politico and the regularity invited a more thorough investigation. Upon a more lengthy perusal of the site (including a bitter but fair appraisal of Senator Jim Jeffords of Vermont) i discovered a link to “webloggers.” I’ve had a link to this blogging webring sitting on my sidebar for months now and i’ve honestly never clicked it, and never received more than a handful of hits per week from it (as is evidenced by the fact that i wasn’t expecting to see the link on this random log). Yet, by some magnificent irony-loving all-knowing god of blogging, the one site that actually delivers hits to me through the ring happens to be precisely the site that i’d least expect.
Well, for those of you just surfing in from B&L&F&R let me just say: Take that, poopyheads! We’ve got the Senate! Oh, yeah, and welcome to the neighborhood.
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Of all the beloved sites i’ve ever seen shut down, it’s always been the decision of the site administrator(s). Regular readers can leave and staff members can be bitchy and unhappy, but ultimately the admin makes the decision to pull the plug on the main page leaving everyone scrambling to talk to each other on the message boards before those too fade away or become completely irrelevant.
What is it about being the admin of a site that makes it so easy to shut everything down rather than just make a change? Is it that you’re tied to what the site was and not what it will be? Or, is it that you just get tired of making little fixes to what seems to you a large overall problem. Pulling the plug on a site, whether it be a treasured monument to e/n or the best Ani DiFranco site on the internet, seems like a hopelessly selfish choice. However, i suppose if you take on all the weight of maintaining a page yourself then you’re entitled to be selfish about it’s dissolution.
Bearing that in mind, is the solution to distribute both the joys of being a successful administrator as well as the sorrows? Does having a solid support staff make the difference between giving up on a page or just taking a much needed breather? Of course, having support staff presents nearly the same problem, as their collective vision sometimes strays from yours, leaving you either useless or annoyed. So, what’s the best formula for keeping a site going long enough that it becomes a mainstay in a community and not just a blip?
It seems to me that the easy answer is staying involved in the flow of your site, which is why so many solo blog-projects have become so consistent and venerable. It’s also why so many of them burn out and fail. If you don’t stay involved emotionally or scientifically or anything with your own writing, eventually what you’re creating means nothing and your page is just like the impression your head leaves on a pillow rather than a pillow with a real head on it. The same holds true for a group site … if you let yourself stray slowly from being an active poster to being a distanced administrator, your idea of fun is only based on reading the page as opposed to the real fun of writing it. This is not to say every administrator should be the center of attention – primadonna in their own specially constructed showcase. Instead, the point is that you have to occupy all of the positions at once: admin, staff, writer, and most importantly, fan.
Remind me about this post if i ever start bitching about any of this, if you would be so kind..
Um, hi. Nice to meet you. We might have met before… i used to write stuff on here every so often. But, lately i’ve been out and about. You know… concerts, rehearsals, theatre … all that arty junk that college students do because they aren’t doing nearly enough work. I went a whole weekend without even thinking about checking my email; could you imagine? Obviously the computer has become so much a part of my daily work-life that i dread and avoid it when i get home. By contrast, with my decided lack of music curricula this term has made my guitar the most exciting thing on earth. Really. My fingers hurt just thinking about it. I even did a Trio yesterday, but it really sucked, so i’m gonna try again. And other stuff too. Back to work.
I wrote a letter today, and sent it. I can’t remember the last time i did that. I sortof feel like every time i go somewhere other than here to write that i’m failing in my attempt to broadcast my life 24/7 to the boundless ends of cyberspace, and that one day i’ll want to look back at something and it won’t be here. But, i can’t always manage to have all the people i want to talk to read this page, and sometimes they aren’t even on the internet. And, sometimes it’s better to just have a memory rather than a written transcript, memories are much more flexible. So, i wrote a letter. I’d type it in just so you’d have something to read, but it’s really not about anything except being friends. I think we’ll just leave that one in the envelope where it belongs.
I’m supposed to be relating all sorts of details from this weekend right now, as per request of several real-life readers. It’s funny, because i first installed a blog on my page just to have a place to lay down random thoughts, and now it’s become a clearinghouse for the emotions i (c/w/sh/)ouldn’t ever say to someone’s face. And, that wasn’t ever really my intention, but in a way it’s turned this from a random whiney websight into some sort of insidious emotional tool. And every tool is a weapon if you hold it right, but in this case i’m just not sure what sort of grip i’ve got on it….