Crushing Krisis

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For a while i was wholly obsessed with maintaining my general anonymity on the internet. I was ambiguous about my sex, and my location, and i never ever used my real name for anything. That’s what the internet was for, after all, escaping me. However, i’m also wholly obsessed with revealing each minuscule detail of my life to everyone on the internet: i’m obsessed with blogging, and obsessed with being on my webcam, and totally obsessed with posting my songs. And, i realized today that my obsession with anonymity must be wholly over if i’m sitting in front of my computer for 24 straight hours posting stories about me, pictures of me, and recordings of my own voice. Somewhere along the line my online persona became less of something to hide behind and more of a distillation of what i’m actually all about. Yes, i do cringe or look mildly confused when other loggers read my name somewhere. However, now i find that i actually have friends – friends who i care about and laugh with and shed tears over and miss when they aren’t on. And, i don’t think i can honestly say i had many of those while i was still some nebulous genderless nameless entity. So, hi, this is Peter reporting back to you after a day spent totally not recovering from 25/24. I somehow competently moved the whole mess over to it’s own page, and i’ve almost worked out what the contents of the Best-Of disc will be, and i mailed all of my sponsors. However, my bills are late, my private life is unkempt, and i still need more sleep. Do i sound frazzled enough? Welcome back to normalcy :p

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i… i will wait past the fuss and the hustle that keeps me awake but it comes right down to faith you’ve got it in your eyes there are no surprises in store for you – until you awake

and i can see the good in all people except for in me but i never could be satisfied without someone like you to point these things out to me – until you awake

just another simple melody my hands wrung out of me but if it’s just the same i’d like to give it your name that is – until you awake

so you’ve got this guy who’d spend eternity with you right by your side but you’ve got to put up a fight to hold on night to night he will be waiting – until you awake

this is just another simple melody my hands wrung out of me but if it’s just the same to him i’d like to give it your name that is – until you awake

i had this bright idea to sit here and play until my voice wore thin but i don’t say the words that i really meant and it take you to get the page and the pen all syunced up again and i promise to stop thinking of you – when you awake

but i’ll keep playing this tune – until you awake

and i’d to finish soon – so please won’t you wake.

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This is a double a-side… like when the Beatles would release a single and both songs on it would go to #1. Only, not quite like that. “Until You Awake” is a song that i very specifically set out to write to have it be the last song of this, and i only just barely finished arranging it on Thursday in time to record it before going to bed. It’s a plain little waltz, but I believe in it more than anything else i’ve ever written, so please have some faith in what i’m singing. “Necessary Evil” was previewed to the notify list as far back as when i announced that i had intentions of doing this, and i keep on recording it but it’s beyond my current abilities… all i have to go on is this sparkling near-perfect original demo that i rehearsed for hours to record. This is the beginning and the end of 25/24, which turned out as 52/24 if i’m counting correctly.

Enjoy & Goodnight.

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