Crushing Krisis

Comic Books, Drag Race, & Life in New Zealand

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You know, sometimes resolve in one part of a song is just a bridge to more tension in the rest of it (which is really what “Bridge” is about musically and lyrically). Remember when i said i had resolve with Selina? Well… that was resolve on our whole post-romance situation, which leaves us now just as casual friends who happen to share two common months of history. But, i’m finding out that doesn’t mean all that much.

The sad thing is that i never learned to like Selina as her own self, just as who she was when she was with me, and now that i get to observe her without me and with me (but not with me) i’m finding out that i don’t like anything about her at all. Today i totally blew up at her in the middle of our fraternity car wash (i’ll get to that…) to the point where i think some of the other members got inbetween us in case i decided to go berserk and pummel her. Honestly, it’s like now that i have resolve about never wanting to be back with her and knowing that she’s moved on to someone else, i don’t feel as though i have to treat her delicately or pull any punches. She’s honestly no one i’d ever be able to be friends with, and i honestly think i can manage to dislike her. Maybe just if i try real hard…


I wasn’t allowed to sing along to songs on the radio at points while dating her because my pitch wasn’t good enough for her. That’s one of the meanest things anyone’s ever done to me. Last night she told me in the middle of a party that i “was allowed to sing to Ani songs, but not to that song” and i just turned around and told her to shut up. The ironic part? For all of her many talents, Selina is far and away not one of the better singers i know. She goes flat every run-through of her song with the a capella group and she can’t sight read her parts – and she’s so busy bitching about her many inabilities and issues that i learn the parts from shutting my mouth and opening my ears before she ever even tries to read the music.


Sorry you’re having to read all of this … there’s really no point. Or maybe there is … i hold all of the cards; i don’t like her, i don’t want to be nice to her, and i no longer feel belittled by any of her talents. I know now that i don’t have to like everyone, even if it makes me look bad. And, honestly, i don’t look all that bad.

https://crushingkrisis.com/2001/05/3606035/

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Somehow “I Kissed a Girl” gets slightly more ironic and tongue in cheek when i sing it to a room full of lesbians. First there’s the angle the song is meant from, and then there’s the hilarity of my singing it, and finally there’s the point where you just assume i’m the natural narrator and the song becomes about how i was supposed to marry Larry but instead i kissed a girl for the first time.

I had a good time playing for the Dyke Auction, and i sounded good. I had control over all of my own sound, so instead of flipping out about not getting my microphone to work on “Bridge” i just raised the whole song an octave so i could belt it out at the top of my lungs. Demos were to be had, and i might show my face at other dyke-y events billed as (of course) “Peter, the lesbian boy!”

https://crushingkrisis.com/2001/05/3605938/

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Yesterday i liberated a microphone and a stand from the Performing Arts Department and gave a little concert in my living room in preparation for my big event at the Benefit for the Philadelphia Dyke March tonight. While my setlist is still in flux, the covers i’ll be playing throughout the evening include “Material Girl,” Ani’s “Untouchable Face” & “Heartbreak Even,” Erin McKeown’s “How To Open My Heart In Four Easy Steps,” and (of course) Jill Sobule’s lesbo classic “I Kissed a Girl.” Given some extra time i was going to do “Least Complicated,” “I Touch Myself,” and “Girls Just Want to Have Fun” to round out the set, but even with these songs i’m going to have lyrics taped to the backs of my amps. What fun. But, anyway, it should be interesting because they’re nothing to fuck me up other than myself: i have all my own sound equipment, i’m playing by myself, i packed my equipment already, and i have backup batteries for everything. So, if this one goes as sour as the last one, i quit. But, it shouldn’t…

https://crushingkrisis.com/2001/05/3590958/

Trio: Season 1, #18

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Grab the lyrics to the new Trio! “Unstrung” was initially written the night i saw Peter Mulvey, though i’ve been chipping away at it ever since. Anything in the Trio that isn’t in the lyrics i posted was ad-libbed (and probably is nearly what will be in the finished version). “Punk” has had official lyrics for quite a while now, but let’s not forget that it made it’s first appearance right here in an early Trio. “Make It Last” has plagued me ever since i first hammered out the lyrics in a blog window, but now that i changed the key it works a lot better than it used to (thought it’s not any easier to play). “Will It Ever Come” was the top-secret song on the demo because no one had ever heard it and the lyrics were tucked into the “relative obscurity of the second week of the page. Now the cat’s out of the bag, but no amount of online performances will truly ruin the wacky version that made it onto my new demo. “Other Plans is the oldie of this bunch; it predates this blog, Drexel, this computer, and lots of other things too. But i still like to play it, so it’s all good. “Other Plans” is the second oldest song on Relief, and only loses that title by a month (to “Bridge“). So, now that i’ve totally overwhelmed you (and me) with links, you ought to listen to the damned Trio so you know what i’m talking about. But, no matter what you’re doing, i’m going to sleep. G’night!

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That almost wound up being a song about a lonely cat. It still might be. There was this line near the end “but the neighbors will come and feed you five times a week,” but i chickened out and replaced it with sappy relationship stuff. Wouldn’t that be a relief to hear me singing a song about leaving to my beloved cat instead of one of the random omnisexual characters that appear in the rest of my songs? But, on the other hand, then it would be a song about a cat. Hmm. Either way, i don’t really think it’s strong enough to make it onto an album, or even a Trio, so it’s sorta moot. But, i’m just happy to have completed it.

https://crushingkrisis.com/2001/05/3512587/